Interdisciplinary Studies Major, Writing/Marine Bio Minors

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Fiction Journal #4

Prompt: Write an entry focusing on an aspect of the story, Buffalo Eastward.

Response: One aspect of Gabriel Bump’s story, Buffalo Eastward, that I found really appealing was the style and tone. Overall, the style is jumbled and fast-paced, almost like the reader has no time to truly dwell on the events of the story until the very end. The story is written in a first person point of view, which adds a sense of urgency and anxiety to throughout the entirety. Near the beginning of the story, the nameless main character, also known as the Invisible Man, states that “I have problems telling stories. I get on one track and backflip to another, running in the opposite direction,” (Bump, 2). I feel like this confession also gives a glimpse into what the pacing of the story is like for the audience, as the narrator continuously jumps from present day to the past, whether he is discussing bookshops that he visits or if he begins to dwell on a failed affair with Pidge. These flashbacks happen every so often within the narrative, which, in my opinion, gives off the impression that the audience is getting a glimpse of how the narrator’s anxious mind works. This reminds me of our discussion last week about how character and plot are intertwined. This is definitely a character-driven plot, even a character-heavy plot. We, as the audience, are forced into the narrator’s mind in order to figure out his motivations, his desires, and how he feels. There is, however, a mental blockade that keeps the audience from knowing too much about the narrator until the time is right. Obviously, the narrator has some types of mental illness, such as anxiety and depression, or even ADHD or OCD. These moments of blockage cause the narrator to switch to another topic or return to the present day. It isn’t until he gets high or drunk (or both) that the audience truly gets to see glimpses of his motivations. Why is he going to Buffalo? Why does he feel the need to leave, even though his family is being left behind? Especially when the narrator finds a sense of belonging, “I felt clear and directed, anchored…Here, I belonged,” (Bump, 15), it seems that his narration finally becomes linear and clear, and we see that the narrator focuses on what the other characters tell him in their departures. He flies when Sancho tells him to take his life (in a good way, not a suicidal way). As he runs down the stairs, which is possibly a metaphor for bringing oneself back down to earth/being realistic, he overhears a couple with similar plans to run away. While he and the audience don’t have time to dwell on it, it seems as though the narrator’s new, clear, and directed outlook focuses less on the connection to his own life, but to the message that the Gatsby characters leave for him, which is to make it. I feel like the main theme of this story is that people may feel directionless and lost at times, especially when we’re at our lowest, but we will always find people who make us feel like we belong. The sense of community can ground us, realigning us to make the most of our lives instead of dwelling on the past.

Short Story Start #1:

The first paper I ever delivered was ‘The Springster Tribune’ on August 13th, 1962. It was a sweltering Monday morning as I pedaled my chipped green bike down the dirt road to Mr. Kennedy’s trailer. The pathway ended a few yards away from the busted old thing. The trailer was originally white, with a thick, striking red line wrapped along the midsection, but age had weathered the color to a pale cream and sections of the red paint had flaked away. There weren’t any tires holding the trailer above the ground. Instead, day after day, the camper sank deeper and deeper into the earth. I distinctly remember ditching the 1936 Schwinn Aerocycle on the yellowing grass near the towers of frying rubber tires and thinking about what game my school friends were playing that moment. Maybe Scott and Robbie were racing back and forth along the courtyard, their rubber soles slapping against the asphalt with sweat running down their backs. The chain-linked fence would rattle as they slammed against it. As I pounded against the metallic camper door, I grinned at the thought of riding my bike over to Scott’s house after the last paper landed on the last porch. A grimace took its place as the door wobbled open with a creak, revealing Mr. Larry Kennedy.

            “Well, if it ain’t Allan Nash,” His southern accent was prominent, despite the fact that he had lived in Springster, Ohio longer than I had been alive, “Got a lot of nerve showin’ your face here after what you and that—”

            “I’m just here to deliver your paper, Mr. Kennedy.”

            I rarely interrupted adults, my dad had made sure of that. He was a sergeant during the second world war before he met my mom, but some of his training in the army held fast through the years. More than two hands were needed to count how many times Ralph Nash whipped my backside for speaking out of turn. Dad would’ve snatched his belt off right then and there if he’d seen me cut off like that, but I wasn’t in the mood to hear more of Mr. Kennedy’s slurs.

            “When’d you start bein’ a paper boy?” Mr. Kennedy raised a bushy grey brow at me, his brown eyes fixated on my face, “Those little ladies at the school makin’ you do this?”

            “Nah,” I answered, thinking about how I wouldn’t call the teachers at the school ‘little ladies’, “It’s just a part-time gig for some extra cash, that’s all.”

            It wasn’t exactly a lie, but I doubted that dad would appreciate me blabbing about our financial problems to everyone and his brother. The newspaper found its way into the withered, boney fingers of Mr. Kennedy, who promptly spat in the direction of my bicycle.

            “Don’t need to tip you, do I?”

            “No, sir.”

            “Good. Now get your damn bike off my lawn.”

            I thought about how I wouldn’t call the overgrown weeds around the dilapidated camper a ‘lawn’, but I figured it would bring me more trouble to argue with him. Besides, the faster I got the papers out, the longer I’d have to gawk at the new model at Eddie’s shop.

QCQ #1: 21st Century Monster

  • Read Jeffrey Cohen’s essay “Monster Culture” (Seven Theses)” available as a PDF from the course schedule.
  • Identity a contemporary monster (or contemporary version of a monster) and describe it.
  • Use the most relevant of Cohen’s theses to explain what makes this monster a 21st-century monster, or an American monster, etc. How does your chosen monster embody this cultural moment?

An example of a contemporary monster is the Point Pleasant native known as the Mothman. The Mothman was first ‘seen’ in West Virginia in 1966 and had a supposed reign of terror until 1967. Witnesses claim that the creature is about seven feet tall and was able to closely pursue their vehicle while going about one-hundred miles per hour. As the name suggests, this creature looks like a hybrid between a man and a moth with large red eyes. Its body resembles a human frame, however, according to witnesses, the creature is completely covered in thin, black hairs. Mothman also has two antennae-like structures on the top of its head and two wide (ironically) bat-like wings. Many Mothman enthusiasts believe that sightings of the creature predate horrific tragedies. Notable events such as 9/11, the Chernobyl disaster, and a Minnesota bridge collapse have been linked to Mothman sightings. Witnesses of the creature described that its eyes gave the impression of ‘pure evil’ and some witnesses were even reported to suffer from extreme fear and distress that lasted for months to years.

Many of Cohen’s theses can be used to explain what makes Mothman a 21st century monster. The first of which is thesis three: The Monster is the Harbinger of Category Crisis. Cohen writes that, “They are disturbing hybrids whose externally incoherent bodies resist attempts to include them in any systematic structuration,” (Cohen, 6), which I believe fits the description of the Mothman incredibly. As stated above, Mothman has many different characteristics such as a humanoid body, bat wings, big, and glowing moth eyes, which, as Cohen writes, makes it very difficult to categorize it. Many have categorized the creature as typically male, yet there are no definite accounts that describe the creature’s gender. I believe that this is very important in our cultural moment today, considering that many in the LGBTQ+ community are fighting for trans and gender-nonconforming rights. When Cohen says, “the monstrous offers an escape from its hermetic path, an invitation to explore new spirals, new and interconnected methods of perceiving the world,” (Cohen, 7), I can see the Mothman as a physical manifestation of that sentiment. By not conforming with one form or another, by not specifically showing male or female identifying traits, Mothman allows people to step away from the heteronormative path.

The next thesis that was used to explain Mothman’s role in the 21st century was thesis number five: The Monster Polices the Borders of the Possible. Cohen writes, “The monster stands as a warning against exploration of its uncertain demesnes…curiosity is more often punished than rewarded,” (Cohen, 12), essentially explaining that monsters are used to safeguard certain areas or even ideas that others do not want explored. There is a theory that Mothman acts as a guard to a site of environmental disaster in the forests of Point Pleasant, so much so that the famed ‘Men in Black’ were threatening witnesses of the creature to stay silent. In our cultural moment, environmental activism is a contested topic, especially in America. Some may use the Mothman as a safeguard to protect sites of environmental degradation in order to avoid activists from bringing attention to it. Cohen sums up this sentiment on page 13 by describing sea serpents on medieval maps, “It is possible, for example, that medieval merchants intentionally disseminated maps depicting sea serpents like Leviathan at the edges of their trade routes in order to discourage further exploration and to establish monopolies,” (Cohen, 13).

The last thesis that describes Mothman’s influence on the cultural moment is Thesis number six: Fear of the Monster is Really a Kind of Desire. In Point Pleasant, there are statues dedicated to the Mothman. The world’s only Mothman museum is located just beside that same statue. Merchandise, stuffed animals, shirts, and DVD’s are all testaments to Mothman’s grip on society in Point Pleasant. Why is that the case? It is obvious, in Cohen’s words, that it “cannot be assimilated,” (Cohen, 19), so how come there are teams and enthusiasts that actively search for the creature? It may be a natural desire to become like Mothman. Cohen describes the phenomenon by saying, “they [monsters] are also realms of happy fantasy, horizons of liberation. Their monsters serve as secondary bodies through which the possibilities of other genders, other sexual practices, and other social customs can be explored,” (Cohen, 18). In the case of Mothman, many may wish to have the freedom, the anonymity of the Mothman. As described earlier, Mothman could serve as an example of gender non-conformity. This, in turn, could cause many people to envy that freedom and to have an innate desire to live in a nonconforming way that Mothman does. Especially in a tense cultural moment that we are currently in, many may want an escape from terse political debates and fights for rights, which is a niche that Mothman may fill for them.

GAP Journal #4

Prompt: Finish watching the Grantspace video. What else did you find interesting/helpful/beneficial?

Response: There were many things from the video that I found interesting. The first point that I found interesting was the fact that nonprofits rely mostly on individual donations rather than foundation/organizational funding. Most foundations that are willing to donate to nonprofits are typically small, so the amount of money that a nonprofit receives from them is also low. Individuals may have the means to donate large sums of money or multiple individuals may be able to donate some money that can add up over time. It was almost heartwarming to hear that nonprofits truly rely on people who care about them and believe that they can make a difference rather than just foundations and organizations that are required to give 5% of their assets. This brings me to my second point, which is that the IRS requires foundations to give a minimum of 5% of their assets away each year. I’ve never really known much about what the IRS requires of people and foundations, so hearing this was new information. It was also interesting to hear that since the IRS requires this, foundations also need to make their donations public information. The last thing I found particularly helpful was the proposal section of the video. While the proposal is incredibly important, it may not be the defining reason a foundation did or did not give a nonprofit money. Foundations sometimes won’t care about what the money will be used for, but how the money will impact the community that it is going to. It is also a good idea to form relationships between multiple foundations before applying for a grant, or even trying to foster a relationship with a foundation as you are applying. Creating relationships will not only bolster a nonprofit’s reputation, but it will also bring about mutual respect for all parties. Even if the relationship doesn’t end with a nonprofit receiving money, a relationship could lead to collaborations.

Fiction Journal #3

Prompt: Write an entry noting points that interested you in Gotham Writers’ Workshop, Chapter 3

Response: This chapter focuses on plot and plot structure. I was almost dreading this chapter mostly because I thought that it would focus on having a very specific outline that one would have to follow step by step. Instead, this chapter contained a lot of helpful tips when it comes to plot and the overall structure of how a short story/novel should be. The author talked about his experience with drafting and having to cut more than half of the original draft. He expressed how disappointed and upset he was, saying that he felt that most of his work was pointless. At the end of the chapter, he returned to this story, stating that many authors need to go through multiple drafts. The plot isn’t going to be completely developed the first time around, and I feel like that is a lesson that many people know, but don’t necessarily take to heart. In my experience, I had to cut the first version of a story because I hit a wall where I felt like nothing was happening. This was incredibly important though, because it allowed me to write and get to know the world and my characters, and even see problems or cliches that needed to be changed. Reading the anecdote from the author really put into perspective just how important it is to realize that plot isn’t necessarily something a writer has to figure out before they start writing. It develops as one gets acquainted with the world, themes, characters, etc. Another aspect of the chapter that I found helpful was that plot shouldn’t feel like real life. In some cases yes, it is important to have some mundane aspects, but those parts need to progress the plot. Maybe there’s a story about an accountant, but in order to give insight into how the character reacts to the world around them, the author describes the accountant’s walk to work. Just describing the walk would be a little boring, but maybe they decide to put a closed sideway in the character’s path, which leads the character down a side street where they witness a robbery. This in turn moves the plot along while having a glimpse into mundane life. On the other hand, the author warned about having too much real life in stories. Brushing teeth, combing hair, making breakfast, can be great character building exercises, but they won’t help move the plot along. I find that sometimes in my writing, I either move too quickly or too slowly, so hearing what is truly important to plot can help me narrow down what scenes to include or delete.

Fiction Journal #2

Prompt: Write an entry noting points that interested you in Gotham Writers’ Workshop, Chapter 2.

Response: This chapter focused solely on character. All facets of character are completely under the author’s control, from personality traits to physical appearance. I think most writers place a lot of time and effort on characterization when working on a project, but it can be an incredibly daunting task. There were many points in this chapter that I found interesting and helpful, specifically about contrasting traits and the ability to change. In order to make characters truly feel like fully fleshed human beings, there need to be some slight contradictions in their nature. An example that I found helpful was on page 33. This example discussed Kathy Hepinstall’s story, “Queen Devil“, and how the character Nick has multiple instances of contrasting traits that are consistent nonetheless. A quiet and thoughtful person, like Nick, can have moments spurred on by alcohol in which he becomes a particularly volatile and angry man. Before reading this chapter, I had always thought that good characterization equaled consistency and change, so when I started reading about contrasting traits, I was a little confused. Now I realize that characters aren’t defined by one trait that makes them act a certain way. For instance, a shy character can be quiet and insecure in front of family members or large groups, but maybe moments of pressure and adrenaline cause that same character to take charge and lead others. The main thing to remember about contrasting traits is that they, like other aspects of personality, need to stay consistent unless swayed by change. I feel like most writers are often taught that in order to create a good story, our characters must undergo some sort of change, but the problem is that most writers automatically think of change as some ground-shaking and instantaneous event. The section about change really put into perspective that sometimes the best change for a character is one that isn’t fully developed or even wholly clear. There’s an example of this on pages 34-35, in which the author discusses Lolita and the character of Humbert Humbert, who has a desire for “Nymphets”. This desire is a driving force of Humbert Humbert’s character, but as he falls deeper in love for Lolita and finds that he still loves her when she turns seventeen, the audience can see that while he still has desires for nymphets, he has begun to change in how he views attraction and romance. This change is slight, but as the story is centered mainly on Humbert Humbert and his problematic desires, it serves as an impactful moment in the story.

GAP Journal #3

Prompt: Consider the organization your group decided on being part of in class. Did you like it? In order to start drafting a grant proposal, I’ll need to match your interests with real organizations. So then, imagine you’re working/part of an organization that is seeking funds. What kinds of non-profit organization would you like to be part of? A Soup kitchen? An animal shelter? A hospital? An environmental organization? For the purpose of our group project, spend 15 minutes thinking and writing about what kinds non-profits you’d like be part of and why—provide 3 examples

Response: My group chose an organization that dealt with funding and prioritizing children’s development and education. While I didn’t mind deciding on this organization type, I don’t think it would be the greatest fit for me, considering that I don’t have much experience working with children. In other words, I wouldn’t be the greatest advocate for children when searching for grants and writing possible applications. After some thinking, I decided that I would probably fit best within one of these three types of organizations. The first non-profit I would like to be a part of would probably have to do with animal/environmental conservation. As someone who has always had passion for animals and the environment, I think I would be able to embody the types of emotions within an application that many non-profits need in order to receive a grant. An example non-profit for this is the Animal Refuge League of Greater Portland, as I would be able to write about common experiences and emotions that one has as a parent to an animal. Another type of non-profit that I would like to be a part of would be one to do with civil rights and advocacy, specifically for LGBTQ+ and POC communities. I was educated in a very strict catholic environment and as a young person who wasn’t sure of her orientation, I saw first hand how many people can weaponize belief systems to fit their own agendas. An example of a non-profit that focuses on this would be EqualityMaine. The last type of organization that comes to mind would be one that focuses on improving public education. This is incredibly important, especially in terms of public schools, because many do not receive adequate funding for proper STEM and language arts courses. Many public schools also offer services to many students who are underprivileged, which is an especially overlooked factor in education. My partner is an education major and I’ve seen how hard she and other education majors are trying in order to improve conditions and quality of schools, which is why I would be interested to help an organization like this. An example of this would be the Foundation for Portland Public Schools.

Fiction Journal #1

Prompt: Write an entry focusing on an aspect of storytelling craft or content from Raymond Carver’s “Cathedral” pg. 271 (200-400 words)

Response: Raymond Carver’s short story, “Cathedral”, is the epitome of the “short story” as well as a metaphor regarding the plight of artists and writers. The beginning of “Cathedral” draws the audience in by creating a bond between the three characters in the opening line, “The blind man, an old friend of my wife’s, he was on his way to spend the night” (pg. 271). This also denotes a sense of distance between the narrator and the blind man, as the narrator explicitly states that the blind man is a friend of his wife’s, deliberately noting that he and the blind man are not friends themselves. This feeling of detachment continues as the narrator continues to give the audience background information about the relationship between his wife and the blind man, going so far as to not name her previous spouse because, “Why should he have a name?” (pg.272). In this stage, the narrator acts as a shell of a writer or artist. He cannot create due to the lack of attachment he has in all facets of his life. This shallow, detached behavior is seen prominently after Robert arrives and the narrator’s wife looks at the narrator, “My wife finally took her eyes off the blind man and looked at me. I had the feeling she didn’t like what she saw. I shrugged” (p. 275). The lack of sadness or anger from the narrator suggests that he doesn’t particularly care about how his wife views him. This detachment and indifference to his life and relationships causes the narrator to be unable to create or imagine anything other than what he physically sees on television. It is only until he begins to bond with the blind man that he is able to imagine and create, mainly seen in the climactic ‘Cathedral’ scene on pages 282-284. It is in this scene that we see what Robert’s role is in this short story. Carver alludes to Robert’s importance early on, when the narrator describes his wife’s poetry, “In the poem, she talked about what she had felt at the time, about what went through her mind when the blind man toucher her nose and lips. I can remember I didn’t think much of the poem” (p. 271-272). The blind man seems to represent the ‘touch of inspiration’. When he touched the wife’s face, she was inspired to write a poem about the experience, similar to what happened to the narrator later on in the story. Robert’s hand guiding the narrator’s own marks a significant change in the narrator’s character. He has become attached, inspired to create a work of art. So much so on page 284, the narrator states, “I’m no artist. But I kept drawing just the same”. This line in particular struck me, as I feel it does to most writers/artists. In the moment of creation, most people tend to not focus inherently on quality, but on the action of bringing something to life.

Questions: 1. Why did Carver keep the narrator’s wife in the scene when she was sleeping? What was the significance of having the wife witness the drawing that the narrator and Robert created? 2. On page 282, Robert asks the narrator if he is religious, to which the narrator responds that he isn’t and that cathedrals don’t mean anything special to him. Why was it important to have the narrator and Robert bond over and become inspired by something that initially holds little significance to them?

GAP Journal #2

Prompt: What are you looking to get out of the class?  How might it apply to your future life and career? (150-200 words).

Response: I wanted to take this class because I feel that information regarding grant and proposal writing is applicable to most fields. In my case, grants and proposals are undeniably important in science and research. Researchers rarely receive funding to complete projects and therefore must apply for grants from universities or organizations to help cover the financial cost. Working in a university lab has made me aware of how scientists are in dire need of more funding in order to continue making breakthroughs about specific aspects of our world. For instance, I will have to write a proposal in order to receive funding from the university to continue researching a bycatch reduction device that would benefit shark species and commercial fishermen. In terms of what I’m hoping to get out of this class, the answer is simple. I want to learn more about the grant seeking process in order to not only have a better understanding of the process, but to become a better professional writer. These skills are severely underestimated in our society and I hope that this class will allow me to have a skill set that many students do not have.

GAP Journal #1

Prompt: Consider the Overview of the Grant Seeking Process and the writing landscape of grants and proposals in general.  Identify two interesting things your picked up from reading the chapter and be ready to share in with the class next time? (150-200 words).

Response: As I should have guessed from my time in professional and technical writing, there were a lot more steps and processes to the grant seeking process than I had initially thought. While the whole chapter was informative, there were a few things that I found interesting. First, I found that surprising was just how many people are truly involved in the grant process. Applying for grants clearly takes a lot of time and effort on the part of those who seek them, but I never thought that organizations needed specific roles for each person. I understand having positions for lead program staff and a financial advisor, but I wasn’t aware that there were actual grant-writing consultants that organizations could hire. Another interesting topic that I found was the categories of support that grants fall into. To be honest, I always felt that grants could be used for any purpose if awarded to an organization, but it seems silly to admit it. It was eye-opening to learn that there are many categories of support that include operating, capacity building, restricted program income. I also feel that the majority of the population don’t realize how hard it can be to receive grants and how dedicated an organization has to be in seeking them.

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